My Life's Little Adventures: Homesick

Sunday, March 2, 2008

Homesick

Things just kinda hit me today. I think it was on our way back from banff that I realized something. It was a car I saw that started my thinking, it was a Rav-4 same color as my moms car and it made me think of home. I started to think of all the things I enjoyed as a girl, sitting on my dads front porch watching the rain fall and dreaming of what my future would be like. I loved to play in the back yard with my sister and my baby sibblings. Now everything seems to have fast forwarded and I can't make it stop! Everyone is getting older, my sibblings are growing so big, I miss them all. I miss my family a lot. First semester here at CUC I felt homesick a lot but this semester it hasn't hit me until now I guess. Its almost over I know five more weeks but I'm ready to go home. The sad thing is that when I go home it wont be the same. I have to grow up! I have to make my own home, work and live my own life. I am excited and anticipating it but I'm scared at the same time. I miss how simple life was as a child. I wish I could be like the kids I babysit, they run laugh and play all day without a care in the world, the only struggle they have is spankings every once and a while. If only life was like that again. I remember my dad telling me when I was younger to enjoy being a kid and that most of your life is spent being an adult. It's so true. Childhood flys by so fast and then we have to grow up, get jobs and pay taxes until we die. Blah! So borring. I think I'm just not ready to grow up! Can't I regress? I am happy though I am living my dreams, I have always wanted to graduate from high school and get a degree in college. I'm living that dream right now. I will have the most education so far in my imediate family. And soon I'll be traveling to a different country where they speek spanish and I can learn of a new culture! (it has always been a dream of mine since i was little) I guess I just have to keep telling myself things in life don't always come easy, you have to work hard for what you want and pray to God for strength and patience. Its like the speaker said this weekend at church you don't gain faith by miracles but through trials and resistance. He explained it like working out in the gym, they only way to strengthen your muscles is by resistance and its the same with faith. If you don't use your faith muslces how are you going to grow? I guess my temporary troubles and stresses with school will pass and God will guide the rest. I just hope my family knows that I love them very much and I think and pray for you every day! Even if I'm not there God is and He is the closest thing we have to eachother.

posted by AdriannaFay @ 10:31 PM

4 Comments:

At March 3, 2008 at 4:44 AM, Anonymous said…

Adrianna Fay,

I wish you were home sleeping in your bed!!!!!!! I miss you soooooooooooooooo much and can't wait to see you, honey!!!!

You were a topic of importance at Phillips European with Grandma, Grandpa Frank, Uncle David, Anthony & I....everyone misses you and everyone is soooooooo proud of you and we discussed how we have to let you go and live your life and learn from your decisions!!!!

This is a very very exciting time for you if you can see beyond the homework and exams. As I've said many many times before (remember when you and I were sitting at the window at CUC's dorm sofa together there) education is not THE key to success but it one of the many keys you will acquire in your possession on your journey. You've already learned many many valuable 'keys' to success.

It's funny that you noticed a green RAV4 like mine because Anthony and I were driving around in your green Tercel this weekend!!! Love is there even when it's MILES away in two green Toyotas!!!!! lol

Did you receive something in the mail yet...

I love you so much!!!!!!
Love,
Your Very Proud Mommy~
At March 3, 2008 at 7:11 PM, Anonymous said…

Surely this can't be the little girl that I taught to say encyclopedia as a toddler..........oh my how you have grown, not grown up, but grown. Adri - you have so much ahead of you still and you should be happy/proud of what you have already accomplished and where you have been. You are setting an amazing example for others, not just your siblings. I am proud of the beautiful young lady you are becoming and am anxious to see what dreams you have to come! I love you too as the rest of the family does.........stay strong, I know where you are coming from as far as the homesick thing goes. Keep building a network around you, true friends will always be there for you.

Hugs
x0x0
Aunt Peggy
At March 4, 2008 at 2:46 AM, Anonymous said…

Morning Adri, just a couple hours of this shift left and it will be morning and I'm out of here, the reality of the work world, eat, sleep, pay the bills and hope and prayer that someone's life is better because you are passing through. It's OK to be homesick, it means you left something special behind and sadly you have left it behind forever but it's on what we left behind and have today that we build tomorrow, may God keep you close as you continue to grow.
At March 5, 2008 at 5:56 AM, Unknown said…

Hi Adri,
Just wanted to say that I am glad that you and Michael had a great day even though it didn't turn out exactly as planned. But sometimes in life there are little detours but they make us stronger. (You got to go to BC!!!) Anyhow you are a special young lady and the Lord is leading and directing your life. Let us be homesick, homesick for heaven!! No we have never been there, but we have a wonderful hope of a better land, where there will be no more pain, or sorrow.
You are an inspiration to those around you. Keep up the good work.
Love you, love mommyD

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